forget the death of me

Sunday, September 25

damn i can't study
one more week
seven more days
and i'm still wasting my life away
sleeping my time away
omg like whats wrong with me
my whole holidays will depend on my results
yet my motivation is not there
this is bad
damn it
i'm becoming racist again
indians just pissed me off so much
like the bus driver today
oh man
i miss steamboat!
so gonna go again after eoy =)

joke of the week
zi ya:when people have sex, who gets more pleasure
ngai hon:how would i know. like i've done it.
zi ya:wanna try? (with a cheeky grin)

lol. zi ya now we all know. =P don tell her abt this.

to fall in love
how ironic is that?
still they say
its better to have loved and lost
than to have never loved at all
though love can be magical sometimes
magic is nothing but an illusion...
so what exactly is love?

5:07 PM

Saturday, September 24

Time really does have a way of its own
The awarkwardness I’ve expected
Strangely enough there isn’t any
Ignorance perhaps?
Or denial?
Well it doesn’t really matter
Dwelling in the past serves no purpose
Time consuming and heartbreaking
Melancholy not to mention disappointing
Let it all go
The resentment, the hurts, the anger
Let it all be forgotten
For now
time will be my answer

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul,

And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security,

That kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises

And you begin to face life with your head up and your eyes open

with the grace of an adult

not the grief of a child

And you learn to build your roads on today

because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain

After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much

you learn and you learn...

with every goodbye you learn...

12:48 AM

Tuesday, September 20

If time alone were the brush that paints with solace and misfortunate
my life would be a work of art.

out of mind. out of sight. out of reach?

7:13 PM

Sunday, September 18

"help! the wall is falling!"

its just another day
stranded on my own thoughts
thought about what could have been
it doesn't really matter anymore
we've made our decisions
letting go just isn't as easy as i thought
all those memories
i don wanna live by
and give it all up
everything feels like a drama
and i'm caught up in it
i see the exit sign
i'm trying to get out
i'm reaching for the door
how far away it is now?

8:55 PM

Saturday, September 17

untitled
in your eyes
i see a darkness that torments
captivated by the broken symphony
hear the agonising cry of my heart
screaming infidelities at the top of my voice
self denial ain't going nowhere
reminiscing is just a waste of time
whats the best way of release
so now here i am
on my own once again
looking beneath what i see
reading between the lines
growing out of the best deceptions
i've made my choice
no more turning back
no more regrets
i wun falter
i wun fall

the last song
it remains in my head
memories
they keep coming back
we thought we had it all
what fool we've been

the last song
After some time
Ive made up my mind
she is the girl and I really want to make her mine
Im searching everywhere to find her again
to tell her I love her
and Im sorry bout the things Ive done
I find her standing infront of the church
asking god to teach her forgiveness
She looks so happy in her dress
but shes crying while shes saying this
Ive missed you all the time but you;re always too late
Though you travelled so far boy
Im sorry but this has to end
Against the wind Im going home again wishing
me back to the time when we were more than friends
Out in the streetsplaces where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
inside my head still I can hear the words she said
You've torn my heart apart
time and time again
I cannot forgive you
Time and time again we fall in to the depths of who we are
But you can't keep running away from what you're trying to find
Put yourself through the scariest of scenarios
Enter experiences you normally wouldn't dare to go
It's all for the character and the arogant afterglow
Of knowing it's appearance according to your patterns of growth

you've had your say
i gave up trying to understand
i've waited,i've tried
gave everything i could just to make it right
now don tell me you're sorry
that you still love me
that you'll still wait for me to go back to you
find your happiness
we'll move on
i'm a happy girl =)

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5:46 PM

Thursday, September 15

its time to say goodbye
i thought you were the one
that you would always be there
with me, through it all
all's been said and done
you chose to rip my heart out
tore me apart and left me hanging
i've made mistakes
i'm just a man
you've let the opportunities slipped
one after another
put me through heartache time after time
i finally see through that heart of yours
the pain is fading
the scar is healing
time has told
i'm begining to see a side of life i never knew
a hard lesson has been learnt
though it could be a blessing in disguise =)
don make this so hard for me
i'm letting you go
we can all be happy that way
i'm setting myself free
lets take our own paths
please let me go

god teach me forgiveness
i've sinned
but now i'm turning back towards you
wun you show me your way?

8:44 PM

Wednesday, September 14

okay i need a time out
its just so hectic today
i've been too used to free periods
yesterday's match was indeed awesome =)
could have almost had the whole day free
bloody hell we got to take injection for the trip
god i hate needles =/
can't wait for tomorrow's performance
i'm expecting ten bucks

you've been there through it all
thank you
i'm so in love with mariage d'armour! =)

no more turning back
don look at me this way
it was a fucking mistake

8:53 PM

Friday, September 2

never really like this song until i could relate to it

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learningI never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain
I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

11:38 PM