must i really make a choice
its really tough
well at least i get to decide
feels like everything lies with my decision
i love that
at the same time i hate it too
Saturday, June 18
its really tough
well at least i get to decide
feels like everything lies with my decision
i love that
at the same time i hate it too
Thursday, June 16
all my life
i've heard abt you
it feels as though i knew you
how much i long to know you personally
to understand you
to spend time with you
you would have been a great dad
but you left too early
i miss you dad
Wednesday, June 15
here is gone
You and I got something
But it's all then it's nothing to me
I got my defenses
When it comes to your intentions to me
And we wake up in the breakdown
In the things we never thought we could be
I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We've got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all
And I want to get free
Talk to me I can fear you falling
And I won't tempt to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone
for now lets forget that nothing last forever
Tuesday, June 14
right so i've heard
well i guess i knew it all along
as years passed
it no longer affects me the way it used to
i'll get over it
Monday, June 13
just some random thoughts
sometimes i wonder why do i feel the way i do
i wonder why do circumstances add so much limitations to my life
i wonder why do things happen when i least expected
i wonder if there was such a thing as love
i hate the way i bear grudges and never forgive
i hate the way i judge people and receive judgement in return
i hate the way i have regrets about my life
i hate the way i never once believe in fairies
i hate the way i harbour evil thoughts
i hate the time when reality sinks in
i hate the time when i feel so hopeless,so lost
searching for answers i'll never find
Friday, June 10
homesick
i miss home
i miss em
i miss jas tm'
i miss you
Wednesday, June 8
alright work's not as fun as i thought. time consuming and tiring. well at least i'm free to order anything off the menu without having to pay for it. =) business is good. my pay is reasonable. i wanna complain. hardly anybody give tips! =( even though its not for me, it feels better to know that the customer appreciates your service. this cute old man winked at me. he looks like santa's distant relative. this lady patted my head and called me a good girl. =/
i'm in love with black roses.
you were on my mind yesterday
you were on my mind today
you will be on my mind tomorrow
i'm glad time is passing fast =)
Monday, June 6
okay. i survived that eight hours of boredom. woo! wanted to get some rest but i just can't find the right position so it didn't work. then i wanted to read the mags but they off the freaking lights and my "neighbours" are asleep so i felt kind enough to leave the lights off. and i made friends with my neighbour! haha. some middle-aged lady who keeps smiling at me. =)
at the customs,i was scolded twice. =/ not gonna elaborate. aunt came late and kept me waiting all by my lonesome self for like eternity. on the way 'home', i was entertained with stories of my parents i never knew existed. didn't know they actually went through so much to be together. dramatic but sweet. =)
andy is so cute.
gonna start work today. finished memorising the abbreviations for the food. =)
my heart is filled with fond memories of you
Saturday, June 4
alright. its time i make my self clear. first of all. when i first received your letter, i did not i repeat i did not complain to anyone. its more like just a passing statement. alright i know you care for me and you want the best for me and all. i really appreciate your concern. thank you. but in this case. for this cause. i just wanna follow my heart and go for whatever i believe in. yea i might get hurt in the end but that would be the consequences i have to bear for my decision. so i would have no regrets. i really hope someday somehow you will support me in my decision. but even if the day doesn't come. i promise i'll still be there for you whenever you need me. hope we can still be friends.
Wednesday, June 1
i detest you
i despise you
now can't you just get out of my sight
and leave me alone
i wanna sream
i wanna yell at the top of my voice
tears of anger